My Story ~ The Saga of the Brain Tumor

My friends joke that I have helped the local hospitals earn more money because of MRIs of 30 year old women thinking they may have a brain tumor.  I feel like I've been writing long enough that you'd hopefully know my heart when I share this.  I do not want you to be anxious, but I want to share what God has done in my life and how he showed me symptoms so I could be healed.

Here's a part of my story that I shared at The Journey a few years ago.  I was pregnant with my son.  You can check out my combover and the beginnings of my rockin' mullet.  And yes, I know I'm a face talker.  It took everything in me not to be waving my hands around as well....

why do the videos have to stop at the worst shot?

Now this may seem so random, but as I shared my story with my Blissdom roomies Anne, Alison & Andrea they asked me if I had symptoms before the 9 day fiasco.  This made me realize that when I tell my story I never include all of the symptoms that I had been having (but never got checked out).

• Daily headaches for years (I just thought I needed to go to the chiropractor)
• The feeling that I was "going crazy".  There were nights when I would just cry and ask my husband if I was having PPD and needed medicine.  My personality was changing and I couldn't handle things like I had always been able to.  I wish I would've asked for help.  (The tumor was in the front "emotional" part of the brain.)
• The inability to organize my thoughts or life.  
• The feeling that my eyes were crossing when I would lay down and close my eyes. (8 months before diagnosed).
• Inability to sleep.  I would stay up until 2am or 3am before I could actually get to sleep.  This was with a newborn.  
• Days before my surgery my eyes stopped tracking correctly because the tumor was pushing on my optic nerve.  

Hopefully this will ease some of your anxiety when you get a headache.  I guess the best thing I can say is get it checked out if you're not sure, but it is pretty uncommon in younger women.  

Doctors are not sure what causes Meningiomas but they believe it may be tied to estrogen.  Now part of me is nervous to get pregnant again due to all of the hormones that fly through our bodies to grow our little ones.  BUT I don't want to make decisions based on fear.  

God shows up in our biggest, loudest times of fear and in our quietest darkest moments.  

Talk to Him.  Cry out to Him.  

He's here.  

How have you experienced God's peace in your life?